rotten

I sould destroy all links. But I can't. I'm not strong enough, or brave, or... I don't know. At the moment, I'm just sick. I'm sitting alone in my room, watching shitty movies and trying to write something - but my mind is empty. I wanna stop my friends forgiving me. I don't need that because I did nothing wrong. I don't deserve punishment or anger or hatred. All I deserve is all I need - a little love. Just a tiny drop of careness, an honest smile - you should be dead for me. I can't kill you. I'm weak. And maybe I still need you, I don't know. You lied to me, and you thought I wouldn't notice. I did, I just didn't pay attention. What I didn't know was that fake love is the worst thing you can get.

Just die already.